In me, oh Lord, can You create: a pure heart, cause I'm afraid: that I just might run back to the things I hate


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

A Week In Review

Well, it has definitely been a crazy week. From today to last Wednesday, the past week has been jam-packed with traveling and events, and it doesn't look like life is slowing down any. To fill you in, I'll start with today and go backwards.

Today is my 21st birthday. Weird? Yes. When people find out I'm this young, they're usually shocked because they thought I was much older. I can't complain about that, it's actually flattering sometimes. But, I don't know what the plans are. I think my husband is taking me out for dinner, but I don't know where.. you may hear more about that later ;)

Yesterday was another Bible study night, complete with lots of fellowship with friends. We played some volleyball, checked the temperature of the lake (cold, as usual), threw a football around, and dug into the Word. It was great. Then we went out for ice cream with my mom and sister, which is always fun. It was a late night, but we're used to those, especially in summer.

Monday, Caleb didn't have to work, so we hung around the house doing odd jobs and cleaning up from the crazy weekend. We grilled dinner and relaxed, which felt fantastic.

The view from "Suicide Hill"
 Saturday and Sunday are lumped together. Our town hosts a huge basketball tournament every summer, and Caleb's family has helped out for years. He works for a guy who does the sound equipment, so he's busy all weekend. His mom and sister (and now my sister and I) help in the trailer. We give out clipboards, basketballs, radios, and whatever else the refs need. The trailer is also right by the main traffic area, so you always see many many people (which is cool, because I like to 'people watch' ;) Sunday night I was able to help with youth group. We went out to the state park and climbed the stairs to what locals call 'suicide hill'. This is a very steep dune from which you can see the road leading the state park, and the dunes and lake beyond the road. Many people go sledding there during the winter, but not me! A teacher once broke her hip there... so why would I want to go sliding down a steep hill made even faster by sleek ice and snow? I'm not THAT big of a thrill seeker ;) Anyway, we played a game with the students and then had small groups focusing on purity. It was a good night, and we got a very good response from the students.

Mike Donehey, lead singer of Tenth Avenue North, BTF 2012
Thursday and Friday are also lumped together. I took my sister and headed about two hours southeast of here for a HUGE Christian music festival. It's a three day event, but we chose to skip out on the last day. So, in two days we saw fourteen bands, two speakers, and ate enough fairgrounds food to hold us over until next year. It was fantastic. We both love Christian music, so we were thrilled Wednesday afternoon when we had the chance to jump and buy discounted tickets. The bands we saw were: Sevenglory, The Museum, Tenth Avenue North, Brandon Heath, Newsboys, Attaboy, The City Harmonic, Addison Road, Hawk Nelson, Aaron Shust (who we also got a picture with while he was randomly strolling through the fairgrounds), KJ-52, Red, Disciple, and Chris Tomlin. My favorite performance (and favorite band..) was Tenth Avenue North. They put on a great concert, and shared more things than just their music. We watched guys on dirt bikes; R4Christ, and we watched super strong men who had turned their lives around do amazing stunts; the Stand Strength team. We also heard two speakers; Johnny V, and Nick Vujicic. Nick Vujicic was my favorite. We heard him speak at the festival last year. He was born without arms and legs, and has an incredible testimony. He shared how God took his depression and feeling of worthlessness, and turned it into something great that only He could do. He shared to thousands of people that God loves them dearly, and can do the same for their lives. Many accepted Christ that night, and I'm sure many seeds were planted. Please pray for those people! It was so cool to watch everything, but by the end of the two days we were exhausted.



Nick Vujicic, speaking at Big Ticket 2012
So, the last week has wiped my energy levels as it has been crazy busy. But it was a good busy and I definitely enjoyed everything that the week brought. I hope you had a great week also.

Next on the agenda? Relay for Life this Saturday and Sunday, for a fantastic cause!

See you next time!




Monday, June 11, 2012

Time

There's something about a morning where there aren't any distractions, and my walk includes me, the road, crickets, birds, the wind, and Jesus. The other day as I started out for a walk, I was bummed that I couldn't run. My shins ached something terrible, and even walking the small hill around the corner was difficult. It turned out to be just what I needed though. Had I been able to run, I would have been plugged into Caleb's iPod and not had a clue what was going on around me. That usually works for me; I plug into a few very heavy and upbeat songs from Kutless, and the next thing I know my run is over and I'm back at our house. Thennnn is when my shins start hurting, but I'm at home, so I can ice them. Anyway, as I walked most of our neighborhood (which takes around 45min.), I had some time to spend with my Jesus. I've been anxious lately about the job situation and frustrated at times by the lack of things to do resulting in sheer boredom. But as I walked and prayed I asked what was next; a job, volunteering, etc. What could I do to love on people? I still don't know whats in store, as usual. But with nothing but nature around me, I was surrounded by this incredible peace that I can't explain. Yes, I have nothing but time. Even right now, as I sit out on our deck and write this, I know I have nothing but time, and it kind of drives me nuts to be honest. But I'm ok with that. Whatever God wants me to do with this time, I can, because I don't have anything else to do! Haha.. maybe that's how He wants it.


Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Delight Yourself In The Lord

As I sit outside on my doorstep this morning, I hear the birds, watch my dog chase the squirrels, and enjoy the fresh air. I watched an ant crawl as it traveled to his destination, and I watched a large Daddy Long Leg crawl into one of the flowerbeds. God's creation never ceases to amaze me. I mean, how often do we actually just sit and enjoy it? Most of us find it hard to do that. We have so many things going on in our busy lives; we have to be here at this time, there at that time, then we do this, then that... and on and on it goes. We say; "I'll get to the park later," or; "I'll spend time with God later," and many times we get caught up in something else and push God to the side. We neglect our very Creator.

To top it off, even though we have many people in our lives, we do many things, and have full lives; we often feel so empty. I have. It seems like everything we do is meaningless because when we sit down at night, or even in a room full of people, we feel alone. We ask how that can be. When we feel like that, I've heard many suggestions. Asking yourself questions like, "what are my priorities?" and, "what is my life full of, and what does it need to be full of?" can put things into perspective a little bit more. Last night at the Bible study we talked about patience. Even though it doesn't seem like it ties in, the verse that stuck out the most to me was Psalm 37:4a "Delight yourself in the Lord.." It made me think about the emptiness we sometimes feel. If we "delight [ourselves] in the Lord" would we feel so empty? I don't think so. But what does that really mean? Think about how we commonly use the word delight; when we particularly like something, when we're overjoyed, etc. Do we particularly like God? Do we love Him? Does that love overflow into wanting to serve Him, to keep His laws/commandments? Do we let Him consume us and our everyday lives, and use them for HIS glory? We should. And when we do that, we get a feeling of fullness. We're being used to our extent, but for a greater purpose. And the reward? Seeing God's sovereign work through us, knowing that we can't do it alone, and that we're not alone. We can do this even if we are busy and have to be here and there, and everywhere for that matter. If we do it for Him, we have a much greater purpose. "Do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you."

Delight yourself in the Lord, and say goodbye to the emptiness.

Here's a song that popped into my head as I was writing. It talks about doing everything for God's glory.


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Refreshed

Well, I'm back, with more recaps and a few stories.

Our anniversary went well, but with unexpected surprises. It started with cinnamon rolls, how sweet (yes, pun intended). Caleb had to work so I figured I'd do something special for dinner... I splurged and bought some NY Strip steak! Well, when Caleb got home I already had the potatoes started, and had a mini panic attack when the grill wouldn't start for the steaks :( so they went on the stove. I was already bummed about the steak, so when the milk jug tipped too far and much more milk than needed was added to the mashed potatoes I had to take a deep breath. I know it wasn't a huge deal, but I really wanted to make dinner special. Luckily, they were still good... just a bit creamy.. haha.

Anyway, what I found most amusing about the day was what happened when we went out after dinner. We decided to walk the breakwall to the lighthouse. As we were just getting to where the sand and water met a couple was trying to take their own picture. You know, the "I'll hold it out in front of me and hopefully it'll turn out" way. So I offered to take it for them. Caleb asked where they were from and we started back on our way as we talked. Peter and Dolores are from a college town downstate, right next to another college town. They were on vacation here until they headed further upstate later this week for the other half of their vacation. I guess they have friends who know the area, so they decided to check out town. They kept commenting on how beautiful it is here, and how its so laid back and a friendly community. I'm originally from the same side of the state as Dolores is, so we were talking about that a little bit. It turns out, her mom works in my hometown. Small town USA? Yes. I keep running into more and more people around here who are either from my hometown, have been there, or know of it. It's neat to make those connections. So, we walked to the lighthouse and back with them, and parted ways.

Our conversation with Dolores and Peter made me rethink my view of tourists. Yes, it seems that many of them leave a large amount of their common sense at home, but, they're here for the same reason I am: because their is a larger picture for their life, that being here is obviously part of. And it's always so nice to talk to them. I love hearing where they're from, what they think of this town, and just them in general. More and more I find myself having a genuine love for these people - and the people of this town - regardless if I know them. The only explanation is that its a Jesus love :) I keep trying to remind myself that when someone walks out into the middle of the street in front of me, or opens their car door when I'm driving by just two feet away. Some things just really drive me nuts from time to time, but I can't shake the love for them, nor do I want to. And, to be honest, I wouldn't want to not have tourists here.

My next story is from today. So you'll understand what I'm about to write, here's a little background: we got married young, bought a house, fixed it up, and are now enjoying the wonderful neighborhood that its in. My father-in-law helps with many of the projects at our house, and is currently building our retaining wall. So, as I was walking our dog today, one of the neighbors came out of his garage and started walking towards me. He asked what kind of dog Honey is, and then if I lived in the neighborhood. Here's how the rest of the conversation went:

Me: "Yes, we live in the big red house before the curve."
Him: "Oh, ok, I think I talked to your dad earlier today."
Me: "Oh, you must mean my father-in-law."
Him: "*pauses, gets funny expression* Father-in-law?! I thought you were in high school!"
Me: "*laughs* No, I'm not"
Him: "Oh, well just say thank you then, because you look young."
Me: "Well thank you. You probably see my husband driving through here quite a bit; he's the truck with the trailer."
Him: "Ok, so you live with his parents?"
Me: "No... that's our house"
Him: "What?! You mean to tell me that you two young people OWN that great big house?!"
Me: "Yes, we do. It was in pretty bad shape, so we got a really good deal on it."
Him: "Wow, thats great. That's like this house right back here...."

And on the conversation went. I had to laugh though; first he thought I was in high school, then he didn't even consider that the house was ours. It makes me feel even more fortunate to have been able to buy a house and fix it up only months after being married. God has been so good to us!

My last thing for this long post is that I think we've found something else to add to our agenda. On Tuesdays, a young adult group Bible study was started two summers ago. Neither of us were able to go the first summer or even last summer, but we decided to try it out tonight. The group was maybe 15-20 people. It meets at the beach and for the first little while everyone just hangs out; they play volleyball, walk to the water, play football, etc. Then we dig into the Word, and this summer the interim youth pastor is leading it. The focus comes from John 10:10, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I [Jesus] have come that they may have life, and have it to the full [abundantly],"and each week the teaching/discussion will be on the fruit of the Spirit (from Galatians 5), and how the thief tries to steal our "fruit."Something else that was also mentioned was how its not referred to as "fruits," but as "fruit." So, it seems that they're one package. What are your thoughts? I know that as Christians, we strive to be more Christ-like and that growth is a process, but I feel like I'm not the same place in each fruit (love, joy, peace, patience,..etc.). Thinking that, it makes me wonder how they can come as "one package" because of where I am, and I've never heard it referred to like that before. Thoughts? Comments? Please share! Anyway, I think we've found something to do on Tuesday nights, and I'm pleased. Its nice to have fellowship with other young people on our time, and not just at church on Sundays. It's just, refreshing, I guess you could say.

Well, I'm off. Have a good night :)

Monday, June 4, 2012

Our First Anniversary


June 4th, 2011


One year ago today I was pacing back and forth in the church library; shaking and unable to sit or be still. Later, I was standing at the altar clutching the hands of an amazing man so I wouldn't fall over. A few minutes later I married my best friend and love of my life. He still steadies me when I'm about to fall, and I know he always will. Thank you for an amazing first year, Caleb, I love you!

In honor of our first anniversary, here are some wedding pictures!



We're finally hitched!

The getaway!



"Promise" Cake Topper from the Willow Tree collection on an apple blossom cake.
Gluten free cake with edible tools!

Daddy Daughter Dance :) 
Just Fishin' by: Trace Adkins

Our first dance
Bring It On Home by: Little Big Town 

Who could resist the Cupid Shuffle? Not me!