In me, oh Lord, can You create: a pure heart, cause I'm afraid: that I just might run back to the things I hate


Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Catching Up

I know, I know... it's been way too long since I've written. And so much has happened, I can't even think to tell you all of it, but I'll try :) 

First of all, my last day of classes and last day of work at the college were one day apart. It was so weird. I loved working there. The people in that office were always kind, encouraging, honest, and just plain fun to be around. I learned so much while I was there, and will definitely miss some of the routine tasks that seemed so menial, yet sometimes made my day. And all the people who filtered in and out of that office.... oooh, how I love being around people. I love to see so many different faces, personalities, ages, and I love to be able to greet them with a smile and cheerful energy. I miss it so much already. 

 For Mother's Day I headed across state with my parents and sister. We saw both sets of grandparents and many other family members. I was wonderful :) I love getting home every now and then, especially for occasions that honor family. Somehow my dad, sister and I kept mom's gift under the radar (she didn't have a clue!! Put that in the record book as a first!) We ordered her a gorgeous ring with my brother, sister, and I's birthstones on it, and it's so pretty! The day before that, we had Caleb's family over to celebrate with a cookout, bonfire, and some s'mores. It was fun. (I'm beginning to like hosting things here more than I expected ;) 

My last day of working at the church was last week also. Crazy, I know, it seems so weird. I miss it so much. I loved making the documents, looking stuff up, and helping with whatever was needed. But, we now have an interim youth pastor who is doing great, and two summer interns who I'm sure will do the same. As hard as it was for me to be done, I think it was right timing. "For everything there is a season.." (Ecclesiastes 3:1a), and I think my season was over. I was burned out, my head spun, and I didn't have the same passion and drive that I had when I first started. I guess its good that the position was only an internship. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved what I did, learned so much more than I expected, and greeted each new task/opportunity/challenge with the energy and faith that I could, and it was amazing. But, I think it was time to move on to what's next (that I don't even know about yet..).

While on the subject of church, I'll touch on youth group. The high school and middle school groups split the beginning of this month. Everything is going great, and both groups are growing. Caleb and I are working with the high school group, but still miss the middle school age students. They are all amazing, and I'm glad we have the opportunity to minister to them. Many of our high school students graduated (close to ten), and we had the opportunity to be at the graduation where most of them received their diploma. The smiles, the sighs of relief, the tears, the relieved laughs.... it was so cool to see them achieve that accomplishment. 

Well, Monday was Memorial Day. We joined many people in this country who were remembering those who served. It was especially full of memories for me, as I poured over so many good memories of my uncle. In 2004 he gave his life for this country while serving in the U.S. Army during Operation Iraqi Freedom. There isn't a day that goes by that he isn't missed. I still remember his voice. I remember shooting archery with him.. the 3-D shoots, the sleep-overs with my cousins, and so much more... I'm thankful for him serving, my dad, my grandpa, my cousins, and everyone else who serves and has served this country. They all hold a special place in my heart. Well, while observing one memorial service, a parade, and then another memorial service, we saw many things. We saw men and women who were old and young take part in the services, families who had lost loved ones, families standing beside their enlisted and veteran loved ones, and enlisted and veteran individuals who proudly took part in these services with all the vigor they seemed to have. It was beautiful. And so was the support from the community. One thing that especially stuck out to me was this: as we were leaving the last service, we walked past a veteran who was being helped walk by a person on each side of him. He was old, brittle, and slightly bent over. He was in uniform; greens, and a hat that happened to be quite decorated with pins and medals. He may have talked and walked slow, but he was quick to smile. I don't know what memories the years of his life and service hold, but I do know that his smile was contagious. As someone shouted a greeting to him; he turned slightly as his eyes sought the face that matched the voice, his arm raised and his hand waved, and the ever-apparent smile never left his face as he replied to who seemed to be an old friend. His eyes were bright, and as he stood there unsteadily waiting for someone to pull the car up, I caught the joy that was radiating from this man. My eyes welled with tears as I walked past, wishing I could find words to greet him, but failing. I continued to walk, and then turned to take one more look. He didn't used to be so thin, his face didn't used to have so many wrinkles, he used to stand straight, and I would bet that his smile has been the same for his whole life.  Isn't it amazing what you can learn in fifteen seconds? I can still see him standing there. I am thankful for his service, thankful that he didn't lose his joy, and thankful that he passed just a bit of it to me. 

It's hard to top that story, and I'm not even going to try to do so. But, I would love to meet him in person. It would be so cool if I were to get a job, and he were to walk in. I don't know what job is in store for me yet, I'm trusting that it'll be shown to me in HIS time (of course), but I do hope it's working with people in some realm. I'm awed by experiences like the one in the previous paragraph, and hope one day I could be the (woman) who is radiating that same joy and makes an impact on someone. And I hope to tell them that it's because of my Jesus <3 

Not much has been happening here lately. Caleb's working, I take our dog, Honey, for a walk almost every day, I run errands and clean, I go visit family, and I try to spend time wisely... but take up enough of it so I'm not bored :) 

That said, the only thing I know of that is coming next is our FIRST ANNIVERSARY! Our wedding day seems like just yesterday. We've had ups and downs, but I'm thankful for all of it; everything that has made us stronger. As far as celebrating, we're not sure of plans yet. We'll either head north for a day, or across state. We'll see what happens, we just want to spend the day together. 

Welll I think we're caught up. I hope to be better at writing from now on :) 

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Life & Youth Group

This year is going by so fast! It seems like Christmas was just yesterday, and yet it's May already. Caleb and I have been married for 11 months and it doesn't seem like that long. So many things have happened in this last year, and I can't wait to see what else we're going to encounter. God has been so good to us!

I've been at this job at the college for two years now, and this is my last week. It has been a great experience. I've gotten to know so many great people here, and have had the opportunity to learn what working in an office includes. I have one more shift after today and I'll be done :( How sad is that?! As sad as it may be, it also marks the turning of a page in my life.. to a new chapter. I've been able to keep up with this blog because of this job as I don't always have enough to do to keep me busy while I wait for the phone to ring :) So I guess I'll see where it goes from here. I'll still be working at the church yet for a while, but I don't know where I'll be working after that, nor how much time I'll have to write in here. Enough, I hope, because I've enjoyed keeping this blog up.

Another update is that the man who came to candidate for the youth pastor position was found to not be the right fit for our church. We were bummed. His character and chemistry with everyone were great, but his teaching just didn't fit what our students needed. Like I said, we were all super bummed. He is a great man, they are a great family, but I guess God has different plans for both his family and our church family. So, we are back to square one of looking for a YP. Please keep praying!

While we're on the subject of youth group, this last Sunday went great. We had a guest speaker who led worship and spoke about our identity in Christ and how only He can make us whole. We also played a game called 'Tribal Wars.' It's a lot like capture the flag, except someone has to be in posession of the flag the whole time. We used cloth strips to hang out the students' side pockets (instead of them tagging each other), and used face paint. In my opinion, face paint just makes things more fun :) haha. It was a great night, and we had thirty eight students! We're hosting about ten to fifteen more students per night than we were about two months ago. It's so cool to see some of these new students come in. Some of the students who have been coming lately have never been to church before, and we're so glad to have them here!


Putting on our game face for Tribal Wars